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Does the journey ever end?

Is is so much to ask to just be a typical happy family for a few weeks? I love my husband and daughter, and as much as it scares me to buy a house/car/move and truely be our own I feel this is what we need. My extended family is holding me back and my husband has been very patient. Neither of us are professionals or have the ability to truely stear any of them in the right direction. So while we watch them throw their lives away and get us caught in the middle, we are hear working our asses off. I recently got a part time job, which I am happy to do. I also mind my nephew every other week while my brother works and help run our small woodworking company, oh and raise my daughter. So four jobs- only one that pays. The mothering I do for free, and the small business we know is a labour of love right now. The child minding I feel like I am once again being taken advantage of-of the four weeks I have done it I have been paid for one. So I work four jobs, my husband works three-father, real...
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Losing Patience

Sometimes do you just feel like if you could have 24 hours as a break from real life? To just sleep, or veg, or have some silence? But then after the hiatus the dishes still need to be done, the rooms cleaned, toilette cleaned and dinner ready. I know it sounds petty, there are so many worse things in the world that people are going through, but I would just love to wake up one morning and the house is spotless or something. Cause the days go on and it gets worse and worse, you try and keep up with it but as soon as you turn the corner it is a mess once again. Money seems to be something else that no matter what you can never be ahead. You work your butt off and then you look at the account and it is empty, and the credit cards are full. It is frustrating as heck that's for sure. I know i look at some people and it seems like they have the perfect life, but who knows their story. We all have troubles and stress, hardships and frustrations. They are all different yet all the sam...
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I am not sure what direction this blog will take, perhaps that is why I haven't continued to write? I need to make more time is really the problem-yes my days are busy, but I sit on facebook at night, and I feel like this might be slightly more productive for my brain. In my personal life there has been  no lack of stress (and lack of money, and lack of patience) and in the world around us there is still hate going on and murders happening. I don't understand it, perhaps I don't have a vindictive personality? And I can't say I don't stereotype other cultures, but I am also never afraid to strike up a conversation with someone who has a different skin tone or way of dressing. I like to think I have respect for everyone-respect to me doesn't mean I have to agree with everything they do, but I agree with a freedom of choice. Am I pr abortion? No, but I feel everyone has a right to their own body and can make an informed decision, I believe everyone has the righ...
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Who Am I?

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I Am A Mom. A Wife. A Sister. A Daughter, A Friend, A Work In Progress. I won't go way back, but perhaps some posts will reflect on the past. The titles I respond to the most these days are listed above. I have a beautiful daughter a wonderful husband, yadada. But lately perhaps I have lost who I am, or maybe I never knew. I am a stay at home mom, and I love it. It isn't as common here in Canada, since we are very luky to get 1 year partial paid maternity leave (as long as you have worked the designated number of hours and have been contributing to your taxes) and many jobs will even "top" you up so you get the majority of your pay during that period. There is the debate of what you get paid and what day care costs here these days, and that was certainly a factor, but living off of one salary is damn hard so many do chose to go back even if in the end they are only actually bringing home a faction of what they used to. I actually knew this was something I wanted t...
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