Does the journey ever end?

Is is so much to ask to just be a typical happy family for a few weeks? I love my husband and daughter, and as much as it scares me to buy a house/car/move and truely be our own I feel this is what we need. My extended family is holding me back and my husband has been very patient. Neither of us are professionals or have the ability to truely stear any of them in the right direction. So while we watch them throw their lives away and get us caught in the middle, we are hear working our asses off. I recently got a part time job, which I am happy to do. I also mind my nephew every other week while my brother works and help run our small woodworking company, oh and raise my daughter. So four jobs- only one that pays. The mothering I do for free, and the small business we know is a labour of love right now. The child minding I feel like I am once again being taken advantage of-of the four weeks I have done it I have been paid for one. So I work four jobs, my husband works three-father, real job and woodworker. We work ourselves past exhaustion day after day to make ends meet and build our future. Them? My mom works part time and lives off my fathers life insurance, my oldest brother is on disability but before then didn't do much and when he did only complained and blew his money. My brother works hard, but also doesn't have much to show for it, yet doesn't strive for more. Again, it is not my place to judge, to each their own, but I hate how we are struggling when it is them who owe money or whatever. How do i feel like although we are living with my brother to try and save money in the end we will spend less without him?

I am just frustrated, I am happy to work hard but gets me very frustrated to see others do nothing and get away with it. This coming week I hope to refesh and recentre mysefl-I will work my paying job, but have a few days away from my daughter and husband and space to myself to try and get a better piece of mind. We need to be on our own-I feel like even if we went back to Toronto we would have problems with his family whom we love but we are just really better off doing our own thing and prefer to have opinions given when asked. We need some space to just be "us"


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